Spirit has a plan for me (or at least I hope so)
Someone recently asked me if my goal for the Diaries was to write a book. My reply was something along the lines of "Hmmm. I don't know." I don't actually have a goal for the Diaries beyond showing up to write. At the risk of sounding like a sheep, I have to admit that I am truly just doing what Spirit tells me too.
I'm also realizing that this is the first thing that I have created purely out of trust. I have leaned on my intuition a lot but I have never leaned so fully into something without knowing why. It just feels like the thing that I'm supposed to be doing right now.
I will also fully admit that if Spirit was a human, I might question whether I was being brainwashed into some weird cult. But Spirit is Spirit and I trust it.
Many of the steps I have taken in my life have been well thought out and heavily researched. I followed the steps and blueprints for success and most of the time those efforts left me bruised and beaten from the inside out.
Writing for the Diaries is different. I just show up and write. The same way that I've been showing up to write every single morning for decades. It's a devotion that feels good to my Soul and I can't imagine my life without a notebook always by my side. So as long as Spirit keeps nudging me to share my writing, I'll keep following along like a happy little lemming.
Well, maybe "happy" is a bit of a stretch. I'm not totally blissed out by this process being public. There have been a fair number of inner challenges and my mind continues to try and steer me safely off course. I think that's part of why it's the perfect divine assignment for me. If it was pure frolic and play, I might get bored with it.
What an interesting thing to say. I've spent the last 3 years begging for ease and here I am saying if this was easy, I might get bored. The human condition is such a funny thing. We love to hate the duality that makes this world so interesting.
So what's the point of my writing? It's really just to be me. I'm here to allow myself the space to practice my creative and authentic self expression. If that leads to something more, like a book, great. And if it doesn't, that's totally ok too. Spirit led me this far. Clearly it has a plan and now I'm kinda interested in what that plan might be.